Rambles

I start writing and can't find the time to finish it. I'm not complaining, every distraction is due to my daughter and I enjoy each second of attention that she demands. 

I want to remember her needs. The way her body works, her creative self schedule. Here it is.

The Rundown is my go to list when Ila needs something. It can take up to three or four hours to get through. Normally it lasts up to three hours through out the day, but the first time she wakes up in the morning it lasts only 30 minutes. The Rundown starts with a diaper change with a possible outfit change. Once she's dressed we get a 6oz bottle using A.R. Enfamil formula. Ila eats then talks and laughs before passing out. Talking and the majority of the time before passing out again.  Her cry is a little on the cranky side when she's tired. Once we've gone through the list we try to get her to fall asleep. She prefers to fall asleep completely on one side, Binky in mouth and lightweight blanket to hold over her face. 

530AM: As soon as Ila gets up, we go through The Rundown. The play time only lasts about 5 minutes before wanting to go right back asleep. 

900AM: We immediately go through The Rundown. Her play time lasts two to three hours. She's a crazy active and is always happy.

This routine lasts up until 6PM when Ila gets her bath. From her bath until 8PM Ila is fighting sleep, but once 8PM comes around Ila is out like a light for the rest of the night. 

I love being a mom with a great nights rest. I need a tremendous amount of energy to make it through the day. I'm working out Monday through Saturday in the morning at Ev's gym. Once I'm back to the house, Ila is not taking a nap longer than 45 minutes & I need those 45 minutes to wash bottles or do laundry.

She's such an easy going baby, extremely enjoyable to be around. I'm happy with my kid. I am.  

I have an unmeasurable amount of love for my daughter. It's more than "taking a bullet" for someone, it's indescribable. 

Being a mom has some interesting side effects. Can I call them side effects? It's more of what I've learned. What I thought I understood before birth, but didn't understand the reality of it. There are no sick days. There's no personal time. There's no getting away from concern... that sh** follows you everywhere. 

What's better than all that? "What makes up for not being a selfish person?" Well- no longer being a selfish person for one. But also, and mainly, having your best friend with you 24/7. 

I haven't been able to laugh from silly faces, sing while making lunch, and dance in the living room since 1997 with my girlfriend Stephanie. Now I'm 22 and being awesome because my two month old is helping me appreciate my life by bringing me back to living like a kid. 

Ev, my boyfriend & best friend, is amazing by making me laugh, sing and dance- but it's different. I believe it's because Ila is a girl. I don't mean any disrespect to mothers with sons. It is different, the same way I look forward to having a son one day and having that special relationship with him. It's just different. She's my girly girl girlfriend. 

Ev is an amazing daddy. He doesn't wait for me to ask for his help, he jumps on it. He has found his sweetheart, his princess, his best friend.  Ila lights up when she sees him. These moments bring happy tears to my eyes. 

In other news, two more weeks till Daddy, Mommy, Ila and Thor move to Philadelphia. Our house should be done! This means two more weeks to start & finish packing. 

Wish us luck!