I can see & feel my baby girl.
Knowing that there is a baby inside your body is an amazing and beautiful experience, but knowing the sex brings your pregnancy to a whole new level. I can picture her button nose and glowing eyes, her little blonde hairs and porcelain skin, her cry and fine grasp of her fathers pinky finger. I imagine our first time meeting each other, the birth I can't wait to share with her and her daddy, the moment the midwife says "Alright Katie, reach down and grab your daughter." How I hope she recognizes her daddy's voice and immediately feels safe in his arms. I look forward to this day more than anything.
For all of the first trimester I felt sick and practically disabled. I was spoiled by Evan before the season started and once it did, I felt alone- both physically and emotionally. His work schedule wasn't bad but horrible for a pregnant woman in a new city literally suffering from serious morning sickness. That by itself is bad enough, but then add the fear of possibly miscarrying... I was scared s***less. I knew and still know there could be complications but the last thing I wanted to hear was someone say "miscarriage." There's something people NEED when speaking to a pregnant woman (no matter your relation) and that simple thing is a filter. Besides bringing up the evil "M" word, another very annoying comment was the few that were/are worried about our choice to have a home birth. Majority of people have a wonderful reaction when hearing about our choice, in fact some say they wish they would have or they would like to consider it for their next birth. Then there are those that don't, well- wish you the best. Beyond those two notes of what not to say/bring up to a pregnant woman, here are a few more...
"You look so... small?"
---Yes, I am small. Thank you, but you say it like there's no baby in here.
"How old are you?"
---Really?
"Are you getting married before the baby's here?"
---Again, really? Evan & I love each other very much and no license will prove that to our child.
"Don't lift that!"
---Trust me if it's over 50 lbs, I won't be, but this is 15... so... I'm good.
"What about your life/college/goals?"
---Why do so many think life and it's opportunities are over once a baby comes? I could write about this for days.
"..." Reaches and places hands on stomach
---Odd. I'm going to back away now.
I'm 4 1/2 months now and this list is bound to get better over time. On a good note, the cashier at Petsmart today asked me if I was expecting! I'm sure this will get unbearably annoying on post-birth quick runs (babies at home with daddy) to the grocery store, but for now I'm so excited! Someone noticed I was growing a human!
When we first came out to Philly, I met a lady who gave me the book "Baby Bargains." It's a must read for first time parents who believe and live by critics reviews. I've worked with families as a nanny and in daycares as a provider to know whats good on the cheap and easy on convenience (not to mention safe,) so I've already picked a few things out, but this book has helped me with the rest. Here are a few of my favorites. This is not a registry folks, I don't expect anyone to gift these items :)
Daddy's home, off to bed for a bright and early morning! Thanks for catching up on this special trip Evan & I are taking! Good Night <3
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